As I anticipated my son’s first birthday, I knew also I would face, the next day, the anniversary of his death. I needed to prepare my mind and heart to lean entirely into the strength of God for that day. God revealed His idea to me… call it a birthday and celebrate. After all, our birthdays are not the day we are created… but the day we are born. The day we enter earth from our mother’s wombs. Likewise, a “Heavenly Birthday” is the day we enter heaven from earth. Our souls depart our bodies and are instantly before God in heaven. This indeed is something to celebrate and for sure something to have a slice of cake over!
This shift in focus was just what I needed. I needed to stop focusing on Grayson’s death and begin focusing on his life in Christ! He is alive! This is why I AM his mother (present tense) – he is perhaps dead in body from this earth, but his soul - it is with God! Now, this shift doesn’t mean that this day comes with ease every year… quite the contrary. I still dread it and still cry rivers, but when I am full of sadness – God has revealed His work to me and has given me grace to understand that this earth is not my home, and it is on heaven that I must shift my gaze!